I Don’t Know

imageI’m trying hard to hang in here.. feeling overwhelmed since Thursday.. I wanted to stay in bed and cry all day but I had to help with the babies.. this was the first time in along time that I just couldn’t help with them.. I just wanted to be left alone..

Then my daughter gives me the speech.. momma you’re either gonna live or die.. you have to choose which one you’re gonna do.. you got to get up and tell yourself that you’re gonna live.. you’re gonna fight for your life.. to be here for me and your grand babies.. so stop crying..

I wish she would understand how hard it sometimes for me to even breathe.. I wish she would understand that it’s all I can do some days to stay in the race.. I don’t want to seem weak to her most days I am..

The injection to burn the nerves didn’t work.. my legs and back still hurt and I still have a hard time walking and standing.. I don’t know what to do anymore.. and I really wanna find another pain doctor because I don’t feel like he has my best interest at heart.. the Percocet he prescribed is not strong enough.. I don’t even know if it works on neuropathy.. it has so far so I don’t know if stronger dosage would help..

I feel like if I don’t start walking consistently my legs are just gonna get weaker, the pain in my hips and back has not changed so the decisions to suffer with exercise or without either way I’m in pain.. at least hopefully I could get in shape and feel okay about that.. I gotta learn to live with the pain, depression and panic attacks..

Yes I believe in God and the power of Jesus healing power.. I believe that He is well ever to deliver me.. just as I believe He is well able to keep me in whatever state I’m in.. I know it’s okay to vent and express my emotions.. God Himself tells us there is a time for everything under the sun.. this my time to release my feelings.. as always be bless..

The Original Me Ann..

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12 thoughts on “I Don’t Know

  1. I’m praying for you. I’m going to post some healing oils to my page that fights pain heals the body. You can check YouTube for videos about black seed oil it heals everything in the body but death, and oregano oil also. The pain you’re going through maybe side effects from other medicine. Unfolding Souls book has been released you can go to my page and click on Amazon it’ll take you straight to the book. Be well my friend.

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