I’ve been doing some think.. how I can in pact the lives of the elderly.. I often think about my grandma and how she was everything to me.. I think how could she be everything I needed in this one person from friend to my doctor..
So I began to think well my life my never be the same.. so there is no need of saying when God heals me because I am already healed it may not be the way I thought or planned but He Jesus said I am healed and so I am..
The doctors have told me I have move more and get out more.. that basically everyday I have to decide to live to live thru the chronic pain and depression or give up on life.. I think more or less to me chronic depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain or maybe because I stayed in dark depression for so long I really don’t know which one but it is something I deal with almost on a daily basis but to Jehovah God be the glory..
See I have been waiting for a miracle for almost 4 years healing in my body and my mind.. but Jehovah has put in place where I can no longer wait the time is now to SERVE.. and what better way than the elderly to make their lives worth living and enjoying..
So I ask God to give me strength to one not think about ME.. but to focus on someone else’s need.. I ask for strength for just one hour to be on service to someone else and not think about my pain or anything that I am going through.. I just want to be a blessing to someone.. if it’s nothing but being company to the elderly just a hour..
Then I go home and I rest but for that hour it was not about me or my pain or why can’t they figure out what’s wrong.. but it was about sharing the Love of Christ.. I told you that they have add more pain medicine to me which is designed to slow down the respiratory system.. see I have come to the conclusion that the government would rather I died than I receive the money that I have worked for but God has other plans for my life..
The Original Me Ann