The Source

imageI used to be afraid to sit in quiet.. but today it feels nice to hear nothing but quiet.. I’m glad my son and the babies are gone.. so I can just rest and focus on me.. I’m not even gonna give the pain a voice today.. I will not let the depression settle in beside me either.. I feel good sitting here knowing God is in control of everything in our lives.. I know I get aggravated when I go to these doctors and listen to them diagnose me with blah, blah, but then Your peace always calms me down and I know everything is gonna be okay.. I just wanna say thank You Jehovah for always giving me strength to look beyond man and see the source of my strength.. You..

The Original Me Ann..

Morning Devotion

Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes. Immediately the father cried out and said with tears, “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief.” (Mark 9:23-25)

There are times when even Believers have doubt.. it is then we must cling to the word of Jehovah more and call Him on His word..

Jehovah You said You were my Shepherd. I shall not want (Psalm 23:1). So Father I shall not be in want in health as well as having my daily needs met by You.. 

I am sitting here think “so you can have some quality of life” I don’t know what that means but I’ll pass..

Jesus came so that we would have life more abundantly.. not some quality of life.. I want the fullness of life that Jesus promise me.. and I believe I shall have it on this side.. cause He Jehovah is not a man that He Jehovah should lie.. if Jehovah promised it through His Son Jesus then it must be true.. 

The Original Me Ann..

Morning Devotion

imageI remember I used to literally hate getting up Monday morning for work.. but I would be so grateful to be able to work now.. I say that to say take nothing for granted in life.. all we have belongs to Him the Creator even our steps we take..

The Original Me Ann..

Examine Myself

imageAll this time I was hating you.. I was hating me.. I was hating you for not loving me .. but I didn’t love me either so how did I know what love was.. I was hating you for leaving me but I left me along time ago.. All this time I was hurting over you.. I was really hurting over me and the reflection of the self I saw in the mirror.. all the time I was blaming you.. I should have been blaming me.. blaming me for the control I gave to you over me..

See I finally see just as you gave nothing to me.. you took nothing from me without my permission.. it was me that willingly looked the other way as you tore what little self esteem I had apart.. It was me that allowed you to choke away everything that I was without ever touching me.. I realize that I gave you permission to destroy me day after day by allowing your words to cut deep than any mark I could ever put on myself.. my words built you up and yours made me question the very essence of my womanhood.. 

I learned no matter how I wanna hate you.. and I do.. I no longer blame you.. the blame lies at my feet.. see hating you releases me from examining me.. it releases me from finding me.. only when I examine myself can I find self love and healing for my soul.. FOR THEY DO NOTHING WITH OUT OUR PERMISSION..

The Original Me Ann..

My relationship Notes..

 

Morning Devotion

imageThose who know Your name trust in You, for You, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek You (Psalm 9:10).

Thank You Father that all we have to do is trust in Your Name.. for we know your name is powerful by trusting Your Name we believe all that Your word say about You.. and all the promises You made back then still hold true today.. so as change comes about today we trust and believe that as long as we hold true You and your word.. we will have the strength to not only endure four years but over come them…

The Original Me Ann..

My Soul

imageMy soul is sad today.. I don’t know why.. tears streaming down like a river.. no one to call, no one to lay my head on.. no one to call my own.. you’d think by now I’d be used to it.. you’d think that I’d be strong enough to walk alone.. but I’m not.. I hate when it hits me and I can’t shake it off.. I hate being depressed and days like today when I don’t want to fight it.. when I wanna wrap up in it’s loneliness.. and let it cover me like my favorite blanket.. when I don’t want to breathe are hold on for anyone.. when I’ve encouraged everyone and I look around and theirs no one to encourage me.. and today the fight is to hard.. so I sit in my state of depression and pray that tomorrow will be a better day.. a day that I realize loneliness like everything else doesn’t last forever.. and dreams do come true.. and one day God will give me to some one to share my every- thing I am with..

The Original Me Ann..

 

Transformation Tip

I’m back on the ACV after two months of being off it.. I can already tell a change in my appetite .. I’m walking as much as my back and legs will hold up.. remember to go at your on peace especially when dealing with chronic pain..

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I did an experiment with three different types of Organic Apple Cider Vingar.. you here a lot about Bragg but I didn’t think it was that great in cutting my appetite or cleaning out my system.. Simply Nature was okay but I still felt something was missing as far as cleaning out your system and controlling my appetite for a longer time.. The one I like the best is Organic Great Value it did a great job of cleaning out my system.. the cost was cheaper or about the same but as you can see you get more for the money.. and yes I will use the Simply Nature to.. but a word of advice when trying something new only buy one even if it is on sale to see how it works for you.. also I drink mine with just water but you can add honey or lemon..

The Original Me Ann..