I remember a song from years ago.. I was driving home from work.. and the song said I miss our time together.. it was a song about Jesus and spending time with Him.. see me and Jesus have always been close .. but when I got a job after my second child.. I didn’t spend as much time with Him.. reading His word and just talking to Him..
Someone said “that which you are passionate about you will invest time in.” So I got back on track with Jesus and He and I became my best friend again.. and we stayed close for years.. but I walk away again..

I realize like I have said before with this depression.. I gave up on everything and everyone.. even the source of my strength God the Father.. I look at my day and I have all this time on my hands.. but out twenty four hours.. I can be real and say at the most I give God the Father fifteen minutes a day..

What kind of relationship is that.. a poor one.. I have lost sight of the lover of my soul The Father.. who said “no good thing will I withhold from them that walk uprightly.” (Psalm 84:11)  Who tells us ” Casting all your care upon Him; for he careth for you.” ( 1 Peter 5:7) 

I think about how I used to worship and praise Him .. tears of cleansing streaming down my face.. How I could rest in His presence and feel His love surrounding me..

Like the Prodigal Son in Luke 15: 11-32.. I have come to my senses and I just wanna come home to my Father.. the son said in verse 19) I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Treat me as one of your hired servant. The whole time the son had been gone.. the Father had been looking and waiting for his return.. and instead of condemning the son.. The Father celebrated the return of his son.. 

Jeremiah 3:14 “Turn, O backsliding children, saith the Lord; for I am married unto you:” 

Father I am ready to come home.. help me Father where my day begins and ends with You.. that you’re thoughts will become my thoughts.. You’re ways my ways.. that we will again grow together as ONE.. Map out my days center around You.. and keep my mind from wondering.. In Jesus name , Amen