Your beauty shines in the day.. like the sunshine above.. just as well as it does at night.. like the moon set upon..
Don’t allow yourself to be nobody’s second best.. let him or her make you feel that all you’re good for is second place..
In other words don’t let nobody make you feel like there’s something wrong with you.. that your only use is when they have no one else.. Don’t think by allowing them to treat you less than.. You ask less than what .. less than the person God created you to be.. less than a person with feelings.. less than having your needs met.. but always meeting theirs.. less than being treated like the man and woman that God created you to be.. less than being shown respect for your body as well as your mind..
Too many of us settle for a less than life.. we allow another human beings.. with the same weakness as us .. subject to the same pain and shortcomings as we are.. make us feel less than..
If you don’t know if you’re less than.. let me share with you how to know..
- Does he/ she only call when they need something..
- Are you made to feel special..
- Do you see them only at night..
- Are you satisfied doing sex..
- Do they go weeks at a time without calling/ texting you..
- Do they say we are just friends but act like you their possession..
- Do they show any concern about you..
- Are you welcome at their place anytime..
- Do they show you respect..
- Do they take you out to dinner/ movie..
- Do they express any kind of love for you..
- Do you always do the giving but never receive anything back..
- Do they take your self esteem..
- Do they make you feel insecure..
- Do they let you know that they are looking for someone else.. that you are not who they desire to be in a relationship with..
- Do they let you know you are just a stress reliever.. ( a booty call)
I could go on and on with my list.. but what I’m trying to say is this.. nobody has the right to make you feel less than.. less than a man.. less than a woman.. you have the power as to how you allow anyone to treat you..
So everyday you must tell yourself.. I will not allow him/her to make me feel less than..Less than I know that I am.. key word you gotta know who you are.. in order to be treated the way you deserve.. you gotta know that there is nothing about you less than..
You gotta speak it.. today I am everything God created me to be.. and I never read where He created Adam less than.. but everything God created was good..
So you are good enough for anything.. and most definitely Anyone..
I found out there is nothing new under the sun.. We love , we hurt and we love again.. each time believing this is the one .. but it never last..
I found when we orchestrate outside the will of God.. as believers it will not last.. we must sometimes lay in wait as God does the pruning of everything that is unlike Him.. before He can presence us to our forever love..
I found there is nothing new under the sun.. nothing that hasn’t already been done..
I remember a song from years ago.. I was driving home from work.. and the song said I miss our time together.. it was a song about Jesus and spending time with Him.. see me and Jesus have always been close .. but when I got a job after my second child.. I didn’t spend as much time with Him.. reading His word and just talking to Him..
Someone said “that which you are passionate about you will invest time in.” So I got back on track with Jesus and He and I became my best friend again.. and we stayed close for years.. but I walk away again..
I realize like I have said before with this depression.. I gave up on everything and everyone.. even the source of my strength God the Father.. I look at my day and I have all this time on my hands.. but out twenty four hours.. I can be real and say at the most I give God the Father fifteen minutes a day..
What kind of relationship is that.. a poor one.. I have lost sight of the lover of my soul The Father.. who said “no good thing will I withhold from them that walk uprightly.” (Psalm 84:11) Who tells us ” Casting all your care upon Him; for he careth for you.” ( 1 Peter 5:7)
Like the Prodigal Son in Luke 15: 11-32.. I have come to my senses and I just wanna come home to my Father.. the son said in verse 19) I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Treat me as one of your hired servant. The whole time the son had been gone.. the Father had been looking and waiting for his return.. and instead of condemning the son.. The Father celebrated the return of his son..
Jeremiah 3:14 “Turn, O backsliding children, saith the Lord; for I am married unto you:”
Father I am ready to come home.. help me Father where my day begins and ends with You.. that you’re thoughts will become my thoughts.. You’re ways my ways.. that we will again grow together as ONE.. Map out my days center around You.. and keep my mind from wondering.. In Jesus name , Amen