It’s okay to give yourself grace. I know to was hard but you got and showed up for today; it’s okay if you couldn’t get up today tomorrow is a new day.


imageI was thinking about blogging.. and really what do I want to do with it.. I mean do I wanna make money.. or do I just want it to be my public journal or do I want God to show me how reach people by not only through my experiences but also through His word..

I know one the key things for this blog will be to bring mental illness awareness to the front line and humanity all around the world.. and to share the word of God as often as I can..

Now I was thinking about Facebook.. I have over 1500 friends.. but it’s hard as heck to get them to like my blog.. I know they know how to read but I don’t know what it I’m doing wrong when it comes to blogging.. I don’t think it’s me I know people support what and who they want.. with that being said I am bout ready to stop posting on there..

Now today was a good day in my opinion because I started it in my prayer room.. and I ask God to keep my mind from wondering.. I don’t wanna be concerned with the things of this world.. of course I wanna be informed but I have settled it in my heart that God is in control.. and I have decided that I’m gonna live my life in such away that He receives all the glory.. and yes there are things that happen that I don’t understand nor can I explain but I know that no sin goes unpunished..

Now for me.. l have decided to make the best of this chronic depression and pain.. I look around and I know it could be so much worse.. and I am reminding myself to take it one second at a time and to breathe.. and to remember that God said there is a time for everything.. so if I feel like crying, being sad, happy it’s okay.. I don’t believe trying to kill emotions so I can be happy all the time.. who can do that anyway.. I still have days where my bed is my best friend.. the therapist ask me if it was the pain causing the depression.. I think it has something to do with it, a lot to do with it.. but like I said I always suffered from depression but never like this.. do I feel life is over.. I don’t know.. I pray not.. Do I believe that God will heal me .. maybe but no matter what I believe in God and His Son and The Holy Spirit..

The Original Me Ann

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The Day..

I had therapy today.. which really takes a lot out of me physical the drive but mentally and emotionally is worse than I think than the drive is.. I feel so drained.. I guess because therapy was emotional.. I apologize to my therapist for crying but of course he was like get all out..

I was gonna Blog about but I just decided today.. I’m not gonna think about the pain or the therapy .. I still believe in Jehovah now more than ever.. but anyway I’m gonna rest so my head can easy off.. and so I’m just gonna read so look for comments.. I remember when I was me Ann.. I could read  books all day.. then everything changed and stop reading, writing, watch television.. I just STOPPED.. okay I said I was gonna talk about it..

The therapist ask me have I reached the GIVEN UP STAGE.. I said No.. 

The Original Me Ann..

imageHe looks like he got caught.. he’s one of the reasons I can’t give up.. Stay strong..



Just stopping by to check on you.. I know you didn’t like what the neurologist said today.. that’s there nothing else they can do for you.. so refer to your pain management doctor or your surgeon.. I know you feel like it’s spreading and you’re concerned.. you feel like the doctors are not listening to you.. I know it’s hard not cry.. and curl up in the bed and stay there.. but instead you’re writing scripture and reading the Bible.. and believing Jehovah..

The Original Me Ann..

And when He had come into the house, His disciples ask Him privately, “Why could we not cast it out?” So He said to them, “This kind come out by nothing but prayer and fasting (Mark 9:28-29).


Physical Therapy, Exercise and Neuropathy

By LtCol Eugene B Richardson, USA (Retired) BA, MDiv, EdM, MS10 Comments” class=”medium-thumbnail wp-post-image” alt=”Physical Therapy, Exercise and Neuropathy” srcset=” 740w,×209.jpg 314w,×266.jpg 400w,×406.jpg 610w” sizes=”(max-width: 740px) 100vw, 740px” />
Article “Physical Therapy, Exercise and Neuropathy” reviewed by Dr. Waden E. Emery III, MD, FAAN, Board Certified Neurologist, Lighthouse Point, Florida and endorsed by Karen Sheppard, Physical Therapist of Fort Lauderdale, Florida.
Q: “Should someone with neuropathy do daily exercises so they don’t lose muscle strength?
A: It is important to work closely with your treating physician ensuring that it is okay to enter into an exercise or physical therapy program. That being said, the proper exercise and supervised physical therapy can be very important components in any complete treatment approach to many peripheral neuropathies. The best exercises are low impact, which are the right kind for anyone with neuropathy. The wrong kind or too much exercise will increase symptoms because damaged nerves will attempt to work in overload.
Many neuropathy patients will tell you that swimming is one of the best exercises for the neuropathy patient. Mims Cushing in her 2009 book, You Can Cope With Peripheral Neuropathy: 365 Tips for Better Living ( ) has great suggestions on this subject from patients who have been there.
Q: “Will physical therapy cure neuropathy?”
A: Some neuropathy patients go to physical therapy (PT) with unrealistic goals, thinking that PT is a cure for neuropathy. PT does NOT cure neuropathy. One exception is entrapment neuropathies. A skilled physical therapist and other medical specialists can be very helpful in relieving the pressure on the nerve(s).
Important goals for physical therapy or exercise are to maintain muscle strength, improve gait, balance, coordination and flexibility. Also to improve balance issues and the ability to walk (using both the eyes for visual information and feet), increase one’s being able to hold things and more.
Muscle weakness, muscle atrophy, loss of coordination, dizziness, loss of feeling in the feet and hands, all demand the attention of an expert physical therapist knowledgeable about the effects of various types of neuropathy on muscle and nerves.
Q: “What have you learned about exercise, physical therapy and the symptoms of neuropathy?”
A: DO NOT work through the pain if you have neuropathy. Gym coaches may have taught you “no pain, no gain” — DO NOT even go there! With neuropathy the quantity and focus of exercise or physical therapy is determined by your diagnosed condition, symptoms, and pain. Exercise and physical therapy must take into account the extent of inflammation of the nerves, amount of damage to the nerves, the degree of blockage to them, and how much they have been injured.
Q: “Can you do harm with the wrong type or quantity of exercise?”
A: Yes. With exercise for the neuropathies, a little is a lot and quality, focus, and regularity are all important. Those things are more important than how much exercise you do. With neuropathy you must dismiss much of what you have been taught about exercise. As mentioned above, you must NOT work through the pain or you may increase your symptoms. Over use of inflamed or injured nerves will cause them to stop working temporarily and you may feel a cement-like numbness in your feet and legs, or other strange and painful symptoms in your body.
A good physical therapist with knowledge of the neuropathies will understand you. If a physical therapist is unavailable,purchase a copy of the DVD  by Dr. Hansen On Exercise for the Neuropathies.
Learning your limits, knowing how to pace yourself, adjusting daily activities and exercising correctly, are important insights for physical therapy or any exercise program for a person with neuropathy.

I hope this helps you as well as me as I’m looking to try and strengthen my legs and back.. for me it’s easy to just sit and let the pain take over but I thought not this year.. So I ask God give strength to walk down the hall three times a day.. and ask Him to not take the strength in my hands away.. so I got a small ball to squeeze.. I know God can heal anytime He sees fit to do so.. I’m only speaking of my condition the more you lay around the harder it is to getting moving again.. before all this crap happened I was walking at least three times a week nothing special but was my time.. now there are too many days I can barely move or bend.. Oh I feel a pity party coming on .. and ain’t nobody got time for that..

The Original Me Ann..

Good morning

imageTo the Blogosphere.. I am sick I’m hoping it’s just a bad cold.. I’m ache but with chronic pain I’m ache all the time anyway but I do have a headache.. all I wanna do is make it to the shower, brush my teeth and put on a fresh pair of pjs.. I hate feeling like this hot cold and hot again.. I feel awful..

I hope everyone has a bless day.. remember to be Great.. thank God for all He has and is doing for you..

The Original Me Ann..