Words They Become You

The ways we heal our past is by confronting it, accepting responsibility for it and then start speaking life into our future! God’s patterns are amazingly accurate, so it would do us a world of good to begin following them. 
Prayer of Creative Words 

Father, I come to you, today, recognizing my past, and I need your help in healing my past. I have not been able to move forward because I have refused to deal with my past. I have blamed everyone around me for the hurts and pains, but today, Lord, I am confronting my past with your help. 

Bible Devotion

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Thanksgiving

imageWell today was a good day.. I enjoyed spending it with family.. and the food was delicious.. but I couldn’t over indulge.. I guess because of the ACV .. I drink at least three times a day.. quick note don’t drink it straight.. not a good ideal at all..

The only thing I missing is the shopping.. I can’t do it anymore.. and believe me I loved it.. something about the atmosphere, the game face , adrenaline rush.. I loved the feeling..

So now my greatest joy besides being with family.. is listening to my mother scream for Dallas Cowboy.. like they can hear her.. and the occasional threat of getting put out if I don’t stop cheering for Washington.. I was a Dallas fan when I didn’t know any better.. I really wish I could use emojis.. but anyway I’m riding with Carolina but I got love for Seattle too..

It’s just now 7:00 and I feel like my bed is calling me.. I always wonder why old people went to bed so early.. but I honestly believe their bodies starts to just shut down on them.. I’m not old but I tell you the truth.. I could close my eyes right now..

Kohen wanted to spend the night but I told him grandma is hurting to bad.. that’s the problem with chronic pain.. even the best grandmas have to say no sometimes..

Well tonight as you close your eyes.. remember how blessed you are.. and how today you made it.. even if it was just for a few moments of being outside your comfort zone.. you did it..

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The Extraordinary Life

imageA life peace, joy, fulfillment, hope, and purpose.. a life where all things are possible can only be experienced through Jesus Christ..

In order to be close to God.. we must know Him by spending time with Him.. in prayer, in word, in worship and in mediation..  we must communicate with Him our whole heart.. on a continuous basis.. We must know Him intimately.. we must take attention away from ourselves and focus totally on Him.. we must love Him with all our heart and letting Him love you with all of His..

The extreme intensity of your love must fade whether it be for a boyfriend, husband, wife, and even for God.. or we would never live through it.. the depth of it must grow.. and it needs to nurtured and deepen..

We need to read the Bible.. and we must receive His Son Jesus as our Savior.. and we must pray..

Prayer is simply communicating with God.. as you would a close friend.. prayer is baring your soul to the only One who can fix it..

It is to expressed through worship and praise.. “Worship and praise is the purest form of prayer because it focuses our mind and souls entirely away from ourselves and on to Him. What it communicates is pure love, devotion, reverence, appreciation, and thankfulness to God. It’s exalting God for who He is. It’s communicating our longing for Him. It’s drawing close to Him for the sake of being close. When we worship God, we are the closest to Him we will ever be. That’s because praise welcome His presence in our midst.”

“God is He lives in our praise. He inhabits the praises of His people. “But You are holy, enthroned in the praise of Israel,” (Psalm 22:3) He’s a loving God who wants to be with us. And when we worship Him, He is.”

“When we praise and worship God, His presence comes to dwell with us. And the most amazing thing about that is when it does, things change. Lives change. Minds change. Attitudes change. Every time you praise God, something changes within you, or your circumstances, or in the people or situations around you. We can’t see all that is being affected, but we trust that it is, because it is impossible to touch the presence of God and there not be change. The reason for that is you are coming in contact with all that God is, and that will affect all that you are. Praise is the prayer that changes everything.”

 

 

“Quotes taken from book ” The Prayer That Changes Everything” Stormie Omartian.. Picture Pinterest

The Dumpster

imageI use to always wanna go dumpster diving.. but I could never get my kids to do it with me.. I heard of all the good stuff you find in dumpster.. in rich neighborhoods and college students.. but for the last three years..

I feel like I have been dumpster diving.. I am at the bottom of the dumpster.. and instead of diving .. I am drowning in my own garbage.. I had allowed fear and doubt to be thrown in my dumpster.. I look around and I see depression at the very top.. along with pain and anxiety.. I turned around and I see despair and hopelessness.. I turned to the other side and I see loneliness and unrest.. I look down at my feet and I see something shiny..

I really see can’t it..  so I get down on my knees and I see prayer.. and I can reach it..

So I began to move stuff around.. and I see mercy and grace as they embrace me..to the side I see salvation in His hand and I grab it.. and I continue to move stuff there is forgivenesses and I jump as it wraps itself around me.. I bump up against peace that transcends all understand.. and the more I’m moving stuff around the closer.. I get to the top..

I thought I was moving stuff around.. but stuff was moving in me.. everything I needed to overcome..  all the trash that had been dumped into my dumpster.. the closer I looked the more I could see Jesus.. was still here with me at my lowest.. right in the dumpster with me..

What’s in your dumpster? Don’t give up just start moving stuff around..

Yemen

 

A System In Crisis 

The Yemeni people are on my heart heavy tonight.. I know this long but just news.. I wanted to share.. just because the media stops doesn’t mean all is well.. it just means a better story to cover..

14 million
people in Yemen with limited or no access to healthcare
* 1.5m malnourished children, more than 370,000 starving
* 600,000 pregnant women with limited or no medical support
* 10,000 children estimated to die this year of preventable diseases
* 600 heath facilities destroyed, more than 20% of the total
Sources: MSF/Unicef/UN
AP
According to Unicef, nearly 600,000 pregnant women are living in areas where healthcare provisions are limited or non-existent. So many pregnant women are unable to reach a health centre that the charity no longer records figures for infant mortality.
Likewise, there are no reliable records of the number of miscarriages. At the Al-Jumhori there were on average two a week before the war, said Hana Musleh, the head of the maternity department, and now it is more like two or three a day.
Poor diets and lack of medical care are known to increase the risk of miscarriage in war zones. And then there is the fear, said Hana, constant fear. One day last August, three months into her own pregnancy, Hana miscarried when an air strike destroyed the building opposite her house and jolted her down the stairs.
For the babies that survive, and the young children of Yemen, the future is uncertain, if not bleak. Unicef estimates that 10,000 extra children will die this year alone, on top of those killed directly by the conflict, because they cannot get treatment for preventable conditions.
The charity’s figures are shocking: Seven million children have no access to adequate healthcare; 2.6 million children are at risk of contracting measles; 1.8 million at risk from diarrhoea; 1.5 million are malnourished; at least 370,000 are severely malnourished – starving, in other words.

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Unicef estimates that 1.5 million children in Yemen are suffering from malnutrition
A tiny fraction of the severely malnourished children have access to treatment – some at the Al-Jumhori’s Therapeutic Feeding Centre. Duaa, a baby girl from Saada, was born underweight and her father Wazzan, a farm-worker, could not afford to feed her and her two sisters.
“Before the war I could buy vegetables, I could buy whatever we needed at home,” he said. “But then the war started and that was it, there was nothing. I couldn’t buy her anything.”
Dr Meritxell Relano, Unicef’s deputy representative for Yemen, visited the Therapeutic Feeding Centre in August. “I was holding a six-month old girl and I couldn’t believe it,” she said. “She weighed less than three kilos [6.5lbs]. At six months a child should be eight to ten kilos.”
At six months, Duaa weighed less than four kilos and could not move properly. Now, 20 days short of her first birthday, after five visits to the Al-Jumhori, she weighs nearly six. “Praise God she will be alright,” said Wazzan. “She has put on some weight and she is getting better. Every bit of food we can buy her, we do.”
But there is still a long way to go even for those who find treatment, said Dr Relano: “Even if the children recover and the parents go home, there are no jobs, no income, no way of finding food for their children.”

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A girl lies in a hospital bed at the Al-Jumhori after an air strike killed six members of her family
In many respects, Yemen’s healthcare crisis is just beginning. The health ministry is approaching the point that it can no longer afford to pay wages or buy supplies, charities warn, and medical staff and students are working dangerously long hours to fill the gaps.
Diseases nearly eradicated before the war, including cholera and malaria, are taking hold again, especially among the more than three million displaced people living in makeshift camps. Thousands will need prosthetic limbs and years of physical rehabilitation.
Mental health is barely an afterthought now in Yemen, leaving the less obvious scars of war untended and untold numbers at risk of post-traumatic stress for years to come. Young children are seeing their families killed in front of them and parents watching their children die. “The best we can do now is try and help them calm down,” said Mr Boucenine.
“For these people, who have mental health problems, who need major reconstructive surgery, the situation is very bad,” he said. “The world needs to do something now because soon it will be too late. For some people it is already too late. Even if the situation stabilises now, this is a terrible burden that will go on for years.”
Meanwhile, the war shows no sign of slowing down. Saudi Arabia remains determined to oust the Houthis, who are entrenched in the capital Sanaa. On Thursday the US fired its own missiles for the first time in the conflict, retaliating against reported Houthi missile strikes against a US Navy ship.
“I try to be optimistic but we are in a very difficult situation now,” said Dr Relano. “If a peace agreement is not signed in the next month, I don’t think the health system can be saved.”
There are small moments of hope amid the crisis. At the Al-Jumhori’s malnutrition centre, Wazzan was getting ready to take Duaa home after her final stay. His youngest daughter has never known peace. “My hope for the future is that the war will end,” he said. “That is all we want.”
Duaa will return to her mother and sisters and to a diet of boiled potato and rice. Wazzan hopes she will slowly return to a normal weight. “God willing, we will feed her from the harvest,” he said.

news from http://www.bbc.com

 

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A Prayer

imageAs I sit sipping my coffee.. yesterday was a disappointment to a lot of people.. and it really got me thinking.. how can anyone be allowed to run for the highest office of the United State.. without any qualification the more I thought about it the crazier it sounds… but with that being said I can no longer give this election my energy and time.. I will say this it shows us what is truly in the heart of America..

Moving on I wanted to encourage myself in the word of God.. I hope it helps you also..

“Who is like You, O Lord, among the gods?” (Exodus 15:11) How great are You God.. How holy are You Father.. How merciful are You to Your children.. You rain down blessing after blessing upon us.. You give us so much that we do not deserve.. You give us love and most of all Your peace.. If we seek Your face, You Father will guide us and lead us on the right path.. You Father regin in power and love.. You Father forgive us our sins day after day.. You Father are such and awesome Father,that You provide for Your children and their children.. like You did yesterday and today.. Father You are our strength and our song .. You are Lord of Lords and King of Kings.. Your presence inhabits the earth.. Thank You for blessing us and keeping us safe in Your loving arms.. for that we say How Great is our God.. Thank You Father that nothing can separate us from your love..

Same Old, Same Old

imageI was devastated to say the least when I heard Trump won President of the United State of America.. I really don’t know how I feel because it’s like my insides are numb.. I can only pray that God will protect us His children..

Moving on these last two days have sucked.. I had a doctor appointment Tuesday.. I am so tired of trying to convince doctors that I’m hurting.. it like every doctor say the same thing it’s not surgical.. well that doesn’t make the pain ago away.. it’s still here getting worse.. all I want is some relief at night so I can sleep.. Oh did I tell you my sleeping pill works when it wants too.. sometimes it makes a fool of me night after night.. no sleep makes an already depressed Angy.. worse..

I don’t know what to do I don’t have money for therapy anymore.. but I am still seeing the one who handles my medication.. I know I need someone to talk too.. that’s why is important I blog as often as I can.. if I have learned nothing else .. I have learned that you have to be your own advocate.. and you have to keep going until you find someone with the right answer.. no matter what they tell you don’t give up on You.. I’m one of the bless ones my son helps me all he can.. or I would be homeless.. but I think about the ones who have nobody.. to help them, who have lost everything.. even there hope for a better tomorrow.. I want to tell you I know how you feel.. but Jesus said he would never leave us or forsake us ( Hebrews 13:5).. even when we feel like we are all alone He is with us..

I have no new words to say about the doctors except.. I am disappointed in them.. I only pray that my depression medicine hasn’t stopped working.. because I feel that it has fail me to.. maybe I just need a good night sleep.

I’M NOT PSYCHIC

imageI’m not psychic.. but when I am connected with someone of the opposite sex.. I can read their thoughts.. so much to the point that they (he) thinks I have been going through his phone.. which he has locked and I don’t know the code.. so since I’m not psychic.. I began looking up words like telepathy- extra-sensory perception).. I was looking for a word to try and communicate what I am talking about.. and the closest I could get is psychic- psychic powers, psychic ability, psionics these words are used to describe all so-called powers of the mind, including telepathy but also such powers as telekinesis, clairvoyance, aura-reading, precognition, extra-sensory preception (ESP) and whatever other abilities you want to write about..

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When I think of psychic.. I think of witchcraft… I don’t think of it having anything to do with God.. and the Bible tell us to have nothing to do with such people.. “For rebellion is like the sin of divination, and arrogance like the evil idolatry. Because you have rejected the word of the Lord, He has rejected you as king.” (1 Samuel 23) “He sacrificed his sons in the fire in the Valley of Ben Hinn, practiced sorcery, divination, and witchcraft, and consulted mediums and spiritists. He did much evil in the eyes of the Lord, provoking him to anger.” (2 Chronicles 33:6) “Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lascivious, idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and the like of. I warn you, as I did before that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.” ( Galatians 5:19-21) 

This how I know I am not a psychic because of what the word of God tells me..So what I do have is Intuition- the ability to understand something immediately, without the need for conscious reasoning. (synonyms: hunch, feeling, (in ones bones) inkling (sneaking) suspicion, idea, sense, notion)So I did a lot of research just to find out that I have a Woman’s Intuition..

 

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